Thursday, December 18, 2008
sniff sniff
come back already!!!!
est and i saw something that resembled you.... it was a sticker on a car that said...... ITCHY BACKSIDE hahahahhaha
monkey you faster come home di la.... dunnit stay so long la...afteerrr freeeeezzzeeee ur backside off...
ish...so boh song larrrrr dun have you when we go out...urghhh.....
oh wells...love love..
Monday, December 15, 2008
would i be able to?
Jon just got his results and he did very well...Praise God for that....He truly is a testimony of God's greatness and love and faithfulness..i mean like if u knew him from high school..the results he got then compared to what he gets now..its like....Awesomeeeeee......
but what about me? can i say the same about myself? God brought me through all my internal exams throughout this year...but when finals came...my confidence and faith level just took a free fall and reached rock bottom..every paper seemed Horrible to me...its like i am hoping that i will get enough to get into ANU. thats all im hoping for....and i don't want that coz i wanna do well not just okay... sighhh
what if i don't get the results i want....would i still be able to praise God? would i still be able to choose to bless His name? I pray i would.. coz I know He has greater plans for me and He loves me more than i can ever imagine....
la di da dum........oh welll better enjoy before i find out hehehe....cant wait for the hot springs trip...ipoh trip...pig feast....christmas....ahhhh the joy of holidays... =D
a monkey turned sixteen
You have truly been a great friend...entertaining friend....ganas friend...made me angry friend... funny friend...crazy friend....monkey backside friend....believes me everytime friend ( remember how you believed that my house number was ****1234 or something like that and u really called hahaha and it was midnight hahahaha )....most of all...sister in Christ...
cleaning up during YF camp 2007
my 18th
nick's 18th
EE together...
There are actually many more..but im sleepy...maybe one day i will decide to load more...until then...love ya lots monkey!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
why does pretty rainbows only appear for seconds or minutes before its all gloomy again?
why must it be this way?
why can't i just be mean?
why can't i?
why must i?
argh....
God.... Help me!
coz i don't feel like it. i don't feel like being nice and good and kind and supportive... i feel like not caring..being mean...ughhhhhh....i don't like struggling with my fleshhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! silly flesh!
bleh.
Monday, December 8, 2008
letting go....
Friends and brothers and sisters in Christ.. and one soon to be also a brother in Christ... =D
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Happy Birthday!
U'r 21! time sure flies by... gone were those days u made me bring down the laundry for sweets or do things for you because u asked me to.
The times u made me call the radio station coz u called too many times..remember that hehehe
or The time we fought to sit in front in the car
or The time when i irritate the crap out of you to get up so i won't be late for school
or The time i hid behind you in church and followed u EVERYWHERE u went
or The time mommy scold me and you would comfort me to stop crying
or The times mama would call to make sure we weren't fighting
Those are all now memories..You are like an adult..working.. living on your own in a different country.. time just flew by so fast..sigh.. but i still love you..
no matter how grumpy and scary you are in the morning *really.. i know im irritating when i wake you but u dunno how much guts it takes to call you. i also scared you scold me wan
no matter how irritating you can be
no matter the times you have scolded me and i really not liked you at that time...
in the end..i still thank God for you every morning.
and i pray that God will continue to bless you and grant you the desires of your heart.
Thank you for loving me despite my flaws and being proud of me.. I'm proud of you too sista'. hehe =D
love...mei
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
1 down.. 4 to go
i know its over and all..but don't ask me how was it okay? i will tell u a brief summary of what happened inside here. it was freezing cold or maybe just my nerves..my hands felt so cold and numb i think i couldn't even write my student number properly.. haha *to those who remember i forgot to write my name in my mock paper, this time..i remembered to write my student number..haha even if i din, there's this sticker we are all supposed to stick at the start of the exam haha God knows my limitations hehe not that i will forget anymore la. haha*
so anyway, the questions didn't make much sense to me, well not like it normally did.. but i guess i managed to bluff my way through. dun think the examiner would give me much marks la..considering the stuff i wrote didn't really make much sense in my brain either hahaha but God can do miracles haha He can.. i'm praying * clasps hands, bows head, close eyes *
tommorrow is EALD ( eng as an additional language or dialect ). Don't be fooled by the name..makes this subject sound so easy.. yea its not.. i have 3 hours to write a gazillion words and form ideas in my head. Plus i have to strain my ears listening to some tape of people talking and extracting answers from there. It is soo not easy. We didn't even get the multi-purpose hall for the exam which has like the better sound system...we only get like classrooms..so now all we're listening to are the radios. Bahs. so let's just pray i sit somewhere in front yea..my hearing is kinda not very good and im not the fastest to pick up points.
Please still keep me in prayer..It is needed..very needed...
Thank You to those who prayed for me for today's paper.. God really brought me through la..alot of questions were related to the current economy which obviously i had no clue about but somehow as i started writing God gave me flashes of memory of what my teacher said about Aus economy..so i don't know what i wrote is right but i thank God that He brought me through. And that i went in the exam classroom surrounded by all your prayers... Loveee...
back to the papers...byee y'all
Saturday, November 1, 2008
i miss you ppl
btw, derek (patrick dempsey) is OLD hahaha he's like 40 plus...sigh..old but handsome hehehe...
anyway, back to topic..i was looking through my pathetic file of pictures but i found something that i haven't looked at in a long time actually maybe just forgotten for a long time...i know there are probably many more where that came from but one of the people(s) i miss hanging out with ...
we look so happy..remember why? coz it was EE exam Day! actually it looks like girls vs boy. ahaha oh wells, i miss so many things bout you ppl....the climbing, the laughing, the nonsense-ing, the serious-ing...X-ploding
and you too...
i haven't talked to you in months..those were the days when we spoke almost every night..eventhough we saw each other in school..everyday hahaha and the times we celebrated after every exam and you would shower in my house and then we celebrate freedom for one day haha those were the days... we shall catch up once exams are over..as usual hahaha.. i missed talking to you... oh and i almost forgot...you marked down the number of hours you studied in a day to compare with me so you wouldn't lose out...eee...kiasu..hahahaha thats why we're friends la right...hahaha
im going to bed now... hehe im done attempting haha..
Monday, October 27, 2008
distracted...very distracted
*econs*
* the file and the laptop...open*
sigh..i really need to start studying...im turning into delicia...this is not good. haha no offense cia. u know i love you hahaha i just really need to start studying...someone please scare me...scare me so bad i wont leave my room and study....hehe..i might lose some weight too at that if i dun eat hehe... that'll make a happy me...hehehe bleh...im just rambling so i don't have to get to the file. sigh...
p.s : GOD, i know You are reading this..from heaven probably or maybe from my brains..but PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!
love, your child that really needs to study
Monday, September 1, 2008
oops..
my last few weeks...
cia turns 23!
i know it isnt a very nice photo but i still haven't figured out how to transfer the pics from my phone to the comp. hehe...sorry..
next : Examsssssss and assignmentsssssss.... * faints *
finally : a long awaited holidaY! * wakes back up *
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
X-ploded
Saturday, August 9, 2008
the end...
Monday, August 4, 2008
40 day prayer and fast
the passion concert last night showed me a different view for this country. when i first started this prayer and fast i was praying for only the leaders of this country to stop thinking of themselves and think for the people, for the leaders to unite together despite the different parties sitting in the government. But, last night i saw this prayer and fast in a whole new perspective. praying for this nation is not only in what can be seen, the news that keeps popping up in the newspapers but also what we cannot see, in the spiritual realm.
i pray that christians in this country would grow in faith and fire for God, non-christians would come to know this God that created the heavens and the earth and the beauty of Him. I pray a great revival will come and take Malaysia by storm! on top of that, i pray still for the leaders of this country that wisdom and unity would fall upon all the leaders of the country so that Malaysia would continue to grow!
Chris Tomlin-God of this city
You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You Are
Bridge:
For there is no one like our God
There is no one like our God
Chorus 1:
Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be doneI
n this city
Greater things are still to come
And greater things are still to be done here
Verse 2:
You're the Lord of Creation
The Creator of all things
You're the King above all Kings
You Are
You're the strength in our weakness
You're the love to the broken
You're the joy in the sadness
You Are
Chorus 2:
Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city
Where glory shines from hearts alive
With praise for you and love for you
In this city
Greater things have yet to come
Great things are still to be done
In this city
Greater things are still to come
And greater things are still to be done here
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. 'I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last. Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted. The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.'
In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at ' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. C ould it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature. When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented. When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards. No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it. Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand. And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook thr ough me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me. Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.
'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.'-John 3:16. "And God demonstrates His love to us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us," - Romans 5:8. If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch the lives of others also. My "People I shared the gospel with" file just got bigger, how about yours?
Thursday, July 3, 2008
changi airport
love lots to YOU! missing all of you back home!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Friday, June 27, 2008
slipping away...
* study! - not working
* exams! - coming too soon
* X-plode - dynamite running out of power
* memorize E - haven't started
* spend padini voucher - the best part but with a catch.. i have NO TIME to go
* get kache's list of wants - too long a list (typical)
* pack to go..
* do my encouragement notes for my darling mortal.. - its due TOM!
* study...
* study...
* study...
* sleep!!!!!!! - much needed
* QT - most important...have been missing lately.sigh.. what have become of me?
so many a times i have stood at this position in life, yet it never gets easier. i feel like just sitting at the piano the rest of the night playing worship songs and fall into a place away from all the hectic things that are going through.. yet studies would pull me back to the table and the routine starts all over again.. i need someone to talk to...anyone there?.....
Thursday, June 26, 2008
beauty and the beast part II
one of the dances.. note lumier( or however u spell it ) right in the middle. the thingies on his hand can actually give out fire....woootttsss
when the beast brought belle to his oh-so-many-books library
another dance...here u can see mrs.pots clearer and the duster lady... if you look to the right, there's the floor mat too..=D
when mrs.pots was singing tale as old as time...
up close and personal... BEAUTY AND THE BEAST
mrs. pots and oh-so-adorable chip
ahhhh...beauty and the beast..oops i meant prince
happy ever after
now say it all together now....bye-bye!
* the end of the show. sorry for the not nice pics....i cannot use flash and i was like sitting 10 miles away from the stage..bleh...i felt like a blind bat..i couldn't even see the face of the girl pretty not...only see figure...oh man...IM BLINDDDDD!~!~!~ bah..oh wellsss...still love love love the show.
me and dadddy
mommy and me...ehhh..so poser...hehe
goodnight now everyone...time to go to bed...
THE END.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Beauty and The Beast
Don't know which to feel!
Argh...i dun like feeling the way i do now. sigh...
I need help with decision making next time! sigh..
Pics from est's bday and cia's long overdue bbq coming up soon...
Thursday, June 19, 2008
it is only temporary
will i fail?
will i do badly?
will i let down my parents and myself?
will i be disappointed when i walk out of the exam hall?
will i sit at the table and be completely blank?
will i... will i... will i....
would these thoughts stop running through my head! GET OUT GET OUT!!!!!!!
i need:
an antidote to procrastinating!
to magnify God and not my exams!
strength!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH a life!
Friday, June 13, 2008
my unfailing love
*ooo* i like
prankster and prankstee
on our last night:
the boys
the girls
the game
* more pics soon to come from 1 kempas girls day out and cia's bbq(very late)
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Friday, May 23, 2008
truly thankful
I was actually writing my testimony to explode just now with jon, nick and cia. It just occured to me truly how thankful I am. I am thankful that God loves me no matter what I do, who I become and anything that is related to me. He blesses me with blessings beyong my comprehension, family, friends, good results, protection... so much that this post would never be enough to finish.
I am thankful for all my friends and family, for the people that love me, for the people that know me inside out, for people that would buy me ice-cream when im stressed studying, for people who's heart would stop beating when they saw what happened yesterday, for the people who cared to pray for me, for the family that would stand by me, for the family that would do whatever it takes for my good, for the one who would love me even when all i do is fat pei hei, . .
no amount of words can express how truly thankful I am to all of you. I love You Alll so so so much.
Thank You Jesus most of all for giving me this opportunity to meet the friends i have in church, the friends in college and my very own family. Thank You Jesus.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
happy sad day
So depressing..
But... Thank You Jesus for your guardian angels..Nothing more I can say. Those that were there know why... haha
Monday, May 19, 2008
i went. i saw. i conquered
ex-ketua biri-biri with ex-biri-biri
supertrainer with supertrainees
a glimpse of what we climbed..excluding that rock..which actually me and cia did climb haha
mr.pro belayer and ok-ok climber =D
her new found talent
eve and her sweetheart
following the footsteps of mommy and daddy
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
two down.. three to go
PRAISE GOD! i passed my driving tests completely! finally! i know its like i failed once so it doesn't really count as SUCH great news but i passed road without bribing on my first try. Guess i just cant manage slopes in a manual car. hehe oh wells, i told jon di. if i ever have to drive his car (btw if u all dun know, its manual) i would only drive to fetch grace from church because its the only stretch of road that does not require me balancing on a slope. hehe..so claire, if u wan me fetch you better find me an auto car haha =D
Econs and malay test was on today..malay exam wassss....no comment..prayerfully with more practice i can finish in time. ahha..i din completely finish the last question. not enough time but i think dun have full 10 marks also maybe can get like 2? or 3? haha a girl can dream..so dun say anything. Econs on the other hand wasn't that bad. I don't think i did as good as my last paper but i dun think it was that bad. so praise God considering i fell asleep studying last night because i was exhausted!
Yay yay! God is Faithful!
dun stop praying for me.. i still have the continuation of my malay exam on thursday and accounting test also on the same day. The following week would be my maths test.. Don't stop! really needed! also we ( del and nick) are exploding with E on thurs and fri if im not mistaken. can't remember their names. ask del or nick. =D
love..
Monday, May 5, 2008
Sunday, May 4, 2008
pictures...
everyone no.1
top (l-r) jon, kevin, allan, andrew, joseph(b'day man), edward
bottom (l-r) me, esther, yian, lay yan, claire, cia
everyone no.2
blow the cake
fyi, joseph was trying to blow my candles..living in denial he's a decade older.
taking the candle out from the cake with my mouth
and it's out!
cutting cake ceremony..
btw, im only holding on to his hand because he kept wanting to cut my cake instead of his own..really!
hostess of the birthday bash
next up, photo taking at covershots : (there aren't many pics though, and there's only me and jon)
i like this pic...i look nice * big smiles *
random pics :
easter 'the mask' skit team
skit in action
futsal match team
i look pathetic but amelia looks cute. so oh wells..