i want to be strong.

i choose to be strong.

but how do you do it when you feel lonely and empty?

how do you do it when all you see is pictures of people you miss?

how do you it when the queitness of the room is louder than the voice asking you to be strong?

God...please help me. Please give me strength. Please God.....

doesn't the name say it all?! this was the box i came home to on the 14th of feb. i will let the picture of the insides tell the story..

beautiful isn't it? my First Valentines gift haha when im overseas only i get my first valentines rose haha but still.. Thank You so much *b*!! it was such a beautiful surprise to hear that i received a box of roses on valentines.. esp now that im in aus i wasn't expecting anything at all..

This was definitely a memorable Valentines.. don't you wish you had a boyfriend like this? hehe

Thank you *b*! I love you!

3 weeks down..36 more to go

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Today i took the bus from home to uni all by MYSELF!!!! hahaha what an achievement right?! hahaha i know la..its actually nothing to be proud of la..kan its like just the bus... but i took it alone...so whatever..im gonna celebrate my one step closer to being independant! hehe

yeah...thats bout the highlight of the morning... how sad right? and i have yet to make friends! haha i talked to the girl who sat next to me in tutorial but i din ask her name hahaha so yeah...

actually im like just really bored and you ppl just read a post filled with nonsense which its only purpose was for me to pass time before lunch with aunty and grandparents haha

ok now. bye!

a step at a time

i am officially forced to leave my comfort zone..

mommy and daddy left yesterday. so obviously tears were inevitable. so many times i take for granted their presence.. mommy cooking lunch and dinners..daddy cleaning up the beds after we sleep, nagging me to clean up after myself so i wont mess up the apartment, helping me move my things from unilodge back home or when mom and dad drop me off at uni and come back extremely late to pick me up...i miss them so much..its all kicking in now. im left here with my sister. now its just me and her. and li chen haha sigh...

but amidst all the tough times and sadness there is always a rainbow that God would bring along sooner or later.. thanks to all who prayed! i now have a room in Bruce hall! Although i can't move in yet*quite relieved* coz im so comfortable with my sis and li chen that i dont feel like making new friends hehe but when i get to bruce hall, im forced to make friends..yerrr so scaryyy! haha sigh...i miss claire and cia and est and all you ppl back homeee.....yer....i dun feel like making small talk haha bahs.. oh wells. i shall be on a mission to find a monkey like claire here or at least a milder monkey ahhaha =D sigh....

oh wells, this update is just coz i have 3 hours to kill in the library haha so yea. no pics yet..soon la k? =D haha bye y'all