why does it sound so easy to do but actually so hard?

why does pretty rainbows only appear for seconds or minutes before its all gloomy again?

why must it be this way?

why can't i just be mean?

why can't i?

why must i?

argh....

God.... Help me!

coz i don't feel like it. i don't feel like being nice and good and kind and supportive... i feel like not caring..being mean...ughhhhhh....i don't like struggling with my fleshhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! silly flesh!

bleh.