its proven

I am going crazy!

I just counted the hours of sleep I can have if I sleep now and wake up at 8 (6hours)...

My response... THATS TOO LONG!

Goodness gracious me! what is wrong with me?!

*slaps myself in the head*

Once upon a time

I want to smile again.. to smile and truly feel happy..

I want to wipe away the tears..

And just smile.

Smile just because..

Employed =)

Stuffing my hands in a pool of dirty water..
tying up garbage bags..
picking up after people..
wiping tables..
sweeping..
serving people..
putting things back to where its supposed to be..

My new roles in life haha

I'm working! haha feels so weird typing it out.. I once told myself i never want to be like those people who have to throw rubbish and clean up after people... coz I always felt it was darn disgusting.. I guess I should be more careful before I say something next time.. Now I'm the one wiping up after people.. eeks.. but then again, I'm earning money for myself. I can pay for things with money not from family.. I am gonna pay for IB with my own money earned from washing dirty dishes for 3 1/2 hours hehe maybe I can even save up and fly back middle of next year! or Cia's wedding? hmmm =)

I'm proud of myself. I think I am actually growing up.. =)

btw.. I'm still on trial HAHA so actually if i get fired... HAHA so malu! haha eee I pray that won't happen!

hmm..

I'm bored. Very bored. Very very bored.

I sit at home..sleep..eat...watch shows...play silly games on facebook that are seriously silly but because I have nothing else to do.. i end up playing them haha sigh

I help my sister mop her small kitchen area today..because again I was bored. haha how depressing.. but I think I rather mop her floor than think of when my sem starts again next week.

One more round of rushing assignments, cramming in facts that i would probably already forget by the time december comes, waking up early, studying... then it is time to come home... Yayyyyy!!!

Looking back, it has been 5 months since I left the place I will always call home. Things have changed so much. People have changed and moved on..

Question is, have I moved? or am I still standing at the exact same point I was when the year started? have I fulfilled any of the goals I set for myself this year? hmmmm

*time to start getting back to exodus HAHA yep i am still there.. i moved to exodus 20 something.. from exodus 1 haha dun even ask about matthew.. i am still coping with the old test. haha =( *

i like ...

A trip to melbourne.

Good time spent with friends and mom.

Lotsa money spent on food and getting fat.

All in all, an enjoyable trip, my source of sanity to last another 5 months.

on the many tram rides we took..

with my not very nice bubble tea..

small girl audrey... who still cannot do 360 haha *inside joke*

eating our korean lunch which was supposedly to be *popular* but the shop was so empty haha

lazy d hehe the rest are on facebook. =)

in 6 1/2 hours

i will be free for a month.

i will sleep late and not worry about waking up.

i will go out and 'enjoy' the cold winter's air.

i will disturb the crap out of sister and friend. *yay*

i will learn how to cook more dishes.

i will pack my room.

i will be wishing i was back home.

never again

How could I have been so careless?

Why me?

How do I choose?

God please give me wisdom and strength.